tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3760270334606990882024-03-19T21:48:19.259-07:00 .Jessicahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/07254987547060954336noreply@blogger.comBlogger1125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-376027033460699088.post-46829019737421656542014-06-08T13:54:00.001-07:002014-06-08T14:38:27.445-07:00I'm Already Here<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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“The loneliest moment in someone’s life is when they are watching their
whole world fall apart, and all they can do is stare blankly.”
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F. Scott Fitzgerald,
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The Great Gatsby </i><br />
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I'm past that. <br />I'm living the life I'm being forced to live. Daydreaming of what I want it to be.<br />
Daydreaming because its only us left to consider now.<br />
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I am learning peacefulness, lying by myself quietly.</div>
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I am free but tied down to the decisions that I have already made. </div>
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I'm learning to live a selfish life.</div>
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A life where everything is beginning to revolve and cater around me.</div>
As the bright sunlight hits these walls, this bed, these hands;<br />
I am forced to face my thoughts that I avoided for so long. <br />
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I didn’t want any flowers, I only wanted something beautiful.</div>
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To lie with my hands turned up and be completely empty. </div>
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How free it is, you have no idea how free-</div>
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The peacefulness is so big it overwhelms you. </div>
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But I know its not me to stay in this place.</div>
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So I force myself to face the inevitable.</div>
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I've reverted back to what used to make me, me. </div>
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More so than it ever was.</div>
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I am self reliant, I am independent, I am brave.</div>
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“I took a deep breath and listened to the old brag of my heart. I am, I am, I am.”
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Sylvia Plath,
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The Bell Jar
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